Endurance writer.

  • the pause

    The pause is a trick I wish I learned earlier. You are going to hear it – and then you are going to think: “okay, that is obvious.” I am writing this because it was not obvious to me. And even still, I have to remind myself to do it. The number one way —…

  • How do you learn new things?

    I have long wanted to be good at learning new things. I remember telling my brother way back when before he went to college that it’d be important for him to prioritize learning to learn better. I think a lot of people go about learning in a rather reactive way. They learn lessons, sure. But…

  • What did you change your mind about in the last year?

    I used to think trust was a sort of binary thing. I now think it’s the sort of thing that can ebb and flow and actually something you can intentionally build. That last part has been the real change in my life and behavior. That to earn trust, you need to be worthy of trust.…

  • back

    I took basically a month off of writing on this blog. Why? Well, I do not have the best reason. I think it’s because I have just been caught in a bit of a spiral. It’s not a deep spiral. But it’s the sort of thing where I have avoided facing myself all too much.…

  • hurts

    I moved to London. That’s the introduction to this essay. But it’s not what top of mind. Yes, I moved to London AND I also have a ton of foot pain. I really want to be excited to be here. I am. I really really am. In a way that words don’t describe well. But…

  • accept it already

    I did not write anything for about a week. Well, I did not publish anything. I always write. But it does not always come in the form of essays. At least not essays for this blog. I have a few blogs now. For different reasons. This one, though, is my favorite. This is the one…

  • proof of work

    Look for proof of work. Not in the crypto related sense. When I say proof of work, I am talking about looking at what people have actually done as opposed to what they have said they have done or their reputation or status. All of those variables can seem alluring. They can seem like valuable…

  • fully you

    There are countless books and articles and people giving talks about how to do everything and anything. You can (and if you try hard enough, likely will) get lost in this sauce. This is a note to myself more than anything. The sauce is thick. It kinda sucks. The right thing to do – the…

  • aiming takes a lifetime

    One way to get better at things — really anything — is just to start brute-forcing your way to perfection. What I mean by that is probably simpler than you may think. What I mean by that is that one way to improve, one way to get a lot better relatively quickly, is just to…

  • can’t tell people what to do

    You can tell people what to do, but this violates my newly discovered law — that no adults want to be told what to do, basically ever. They never want to think that they have lost agency. Unless, well unless of course they ask you something. If they ask you something, well then, it will…

  • Protest

    Trying out a new thing right now. I am trying to type with my eyes closed. I am using a friend’s app: Lex. It’s an AI-powered document editor of sorts. My hope is that I can write with my eyes closed, really write a lot more, and then ask Lex to simply fix the typos…

  • fragility of life (and my foot)

    You have to make it happen. Things will inevitably try and block you. But you have to make it happen. Some version of this mantra is what I have been thinking to myself lately. I stress fractured my foot. I am so annoyed. Everything was going well. Starting to at least. It is almost spring.…

  • seriously and your health

    All I keep thinking about these days is just how being serious about something is really how you win at life. Yeah you can get lucky. But the alpha. The thing that really matters above all else – the thing that really summarizes the differences in my head between good and great. The thing that…

  • believe like it’s real, because it is real

    Letting it fly. Coming up with more and more ideas. And actually making them happen. I feel good after I write a long essay. Sure as heck a lot better than I do after watching a long video. I prefer generative conversations. Ones that make you think. That are not predictable. That get you going.…

  • foot pain

    I hurt my foot this week. It happened out of nowhere. I was so locked in. So focused on being healthy. And then out of nowhere my foot started hurting. Lots of pain. Out of nowhere. So I went to the doctor. They do not know what it is – they just said rest and…

  • just lying there

    I rarely stay in bed this late. For all my life, I have been a morning person. A no coffee morning person. The type of person that just gets up and goes in the morning. For the last few days, since I was jet lagged, I started sleeping in. As crazy as this sounds, this…

  • that phase of life

    I am entering that phase of life. The mid to late twenties. Where your parents are getting older. I feel bad about this. And sad about it. Words honestly don’t capture exactly how I feel, but nonetheless I will try. I will try to put into words what it feels like to see youth escape.…

  • book first, plan later

    I have this habit of booking things before planning precisely how I am going to do them. Maybe i am very lucky and all – but this tends to work out for the better. I just signed up for a marathon in Iceland in a few months. I did not plan out the training or…

  • the past

    Where does the motivation come from? It’s an interesting question for myself and also in the understanding of others. For a lot of people, I feel like fear and insecurity and basically mainly perceived as negative things are the primary drivers of their decisions. Is that a pessimistic view? Do I really believe that? I…

  • information diet

    Controlling your information diet is important. When you inevitably pull out your phone, what are you eating? Is it junk food or is it something good for you?

  • airport writing

    I feel like I do some of my best writing while at the airport. Unclear what _best_ really means. But I feel like the airport is a place where I quite naturally get into a rather efficient flow state. You may have guessed that I am the type of person who gets to the airport…

  • lonesome

    I have gotten a lot better at being alone. I feel like growing up I was often afraid of being alone. I wanted my parents around. I am not sure when precisely it changed. But it changed. And now, and now I really like being alone. I really like not having to worry about other…

  • fairweather

    I rarely feel content with the present. Like I have a great living situation right now. It’s clean. Few things bother me. I have a routine that I know is healthy for me. I am alone a good amount – but that’s by choice. I live right near a school that I go into work…

  • so many calls

    I did so many calls. It was post pandemic. And I just. I just started doing more and more Zoom calls. I did 14 a day. For an entire year. I didn’t even do it consciously. I thought it was my job. I thought it was what I was supposed to do. To do calls.…

  • thinking thinking

    Just going to write and see what happens. That’s the reality of a lot of this blog. There is no real master plan. I just sit down. And I write. Sometimes I get anxious of sorts while I am writing. And then I stop writing. And then, well, I come back and start writing again. It’s…

  • feeling of vastness

    This is a short post. It’s just to say that I crave the feeling you get when you are standing in vast amounts of nature. When you look around, and just see hills and open plains and mountains. There is something uniquely freeing about that feeling. Gives me energy seeing and feeling that.

  • coordination costs becomes too high

    I used to write a lot about coordination. I mean this was 6 months ago. Not that long ago. I still think a lot about coordination. I think the thing I have forgotten or at least the thing that has slipped to the back of my mind is that coordination basically always becomes the bottleneck…

  • discontent with the middle

    I just want to be alone. That’s how I feel right now. I was really alone for the last 3 months. And then for the past 3 days I have been spending a lot of time with people I know. And now…and now I want to be alone. I want time to think. I want…

  • ocpd

    I have been told I have lots of things. Things as in like labels. Labels as in things like autism and others. I have been told these things by people I don’t necessarily trust. So..yeah. One of the things – again, the many – I have been told I have is something called obsessive compulsive…

  • too many ideas

    I have too many ideas. Perhaps not too many. But like I feel like I have a lot. A lot is a relative statement. I feel like I have more than the average person. And also more than the above average person. But it’s less about comparison. We may get to that. It’s more just…

  • wolf in sheep’s clothing

    I started writing about this analogy the other day for the first time and I really liked it. So I want to dig deeper into it. The idea is the title of this essay. It’s this idea of the wolf in sheep’s clothing. You have probably heard people talk about the sheep in wolf’s clothing.…

  • foundations

    Serious-ness is a term I have thought a lot about lately. I feel like a lot of people are not that serious about their work. And their lives. Like they are just skating by. I think 6 months ago the term I was using to describe this phenomenon was “intensity.” I wrote about it somewhere…

  • rumination – good or bad

    There are certain thoughts I have that feel unproductive. Not that every thought I have needs to be properly productive. But rumination – as some doctors have called it – just feels bad. It feels bad for me to be thinking about the same things over and over. I know they are just thoughts. And…

  • markets are NOT efficient

    Why do we teach in school that the market is efficient? I feel like this is one of the biggest lies told to/indoctrinated to the American public that has large implications well outside the realm of academic finance. Most all americans who enroll in middle and high schools are taught about the efficient market hypothesis.…

  • jaded and bored and etc.

    I feel bored. What a lame take. But like I am just jaded. I find so many things and people boring. So lifeless. And my mind races when I meet them. I have developed perhaps a sort of social anxiety could call it. Where I meet someone and I am just like so bored. So…

  • the grind

    I have writer’s block right now. I have no idea what to write about. But I am forcing myself to sit for at least 13 minutes and try to pump out words. Sometimes when I’m writing I get a sense of anxiety run through me. like I need to finish up. I need to go…

  • relationship with advice

    I need to get over my relationship with giving advice. I feel like I have this anxiety that has been built into me over the past decade, maybe even longer, where I think and overthink so much around how I use my words to communicate with others. I am so nervous to give people advice.…

  • small team

    Working on a small team where everyone is invested and driving towards a unified vision is one of the most special feelings I have ever experienced. Have you ever? Perhaps in youth sports – where the only thing on anyone’s mind was winning the game, and hopefully winning the tournament over the weekend. Or at…

  • moving to london

    After staying in London for just a week, I decided that I am going to move here. I am not sure for how long. But I am going to come back in a few months and move here. What does that say about me? What does that say about how I think about making decisions?…

  • old and london

    I am in London. I have been in London for a few days now. Feels like I have been in London for a few weeks now. Cannot tell if that is a good or a bad thing. Before coming a few days ago, I had not been here in several years. It was one of…

  • banning Advertising and labels

    I think advertising should be illegal. I am talking about advertising that has permeated society. I think if you were to take a look at society in let’s say 1800 and compare it to society it today. There would be a lot of differences. So so many in every which way. But one of the…

  • eyes closed

    I am writing this essay mainly with my eyes closed. I am not going to read it again after I have written it. So I’m just trying to get words out. There will be typos. That’s fine. Eyes closed. Write. Took another few days off of writing. I know I have talked about this a…

  • incomplete sci fi story: ROBOTs

    A nameless sci-fi film, here’s the idea: I)•⁠ ⁠Robot society, humans never existed.•⁠ ⁠Society is all based on “logic,” no emotions whatsoever•⁠ ⁠Some comedic aspects of the society – for instance, the music in this robot society is really bad II)•⁠ ⁠Secret group within the society forms an organization: “OpenHuman” – mission: create “OGI” (organic…

  • title-less

    I did not write for a few days but that is okay. Funnily, I am not sure if this is causation but at least correlation—I feel like the last few days have been a bit anxiety filled and stressful. I mean I have been I’d say a bit busier than I have been over the…

  • SHORT

    I have never been a particularly late night person. Like both in general but also even in outgoing eras. I mean I like seeing friends and what not. And i have no problem staying up late for something fun or interesting. But my default state is definitely of being a morning person. But I am…

  • directness vs. disagreeableness

    Maybe it is not that I am being overly direct. Maybe I am just being disagreeable. Or not intentionally being. But maybe I just have different opinions than others. And that alone is enough to frustrate people. But I imagine it is especially frustrating for others when I do not effectively communicate my opinions in…

  • pacing

    Yesterday was my first time running a full, formal (like as part of a race) half marathon in a long while. I have run plenty of half marathons (and marathons even) before — but this was my only my second formal “race.” I did fine. I mean I did better than last time. But I…

  • i am ready

    I am about to run a half marathon. In about 3 hours, I will be running. I have run many before. On the order of 20. But only one organized run. It was in Malibu. It was 2 years ago or so. Now I am ready to run another. I have run a marathon before…

  • stuck

    I feel really alone right now. I am tempted between a few choices. Choices in my life that I feel quite unsure about. On one hand, I have an opportunity to continue doing what I have been doing. Which is embracing the diversity of life and basically avoiding doing real work. I’m still alive. I’m…

  • blast radius

    How big is your blast radius? In other words, if everything in your life were to fall apart — if you were to break everything and things blow up — who would be impacted? How many people? I guess it’s a tricky exercise because is the life of one person inherently less valuable than say…

  • new project – biology

    I am starting a new project. I am going to learn biology. One of my issues is that when I say I am going to learn biology, I myself do not know exactly what that means. One of my goals is to get there. To understand precisely how biology works today, particularly around drug discovery…

  • 24 hours

    Starting the day with a win—really a win of any type of magnitude—is a priority for me. It is one of those activities that I very rarely come to regret. I tend to stack a bunch of things in the morning, as it’s when I am most focused and capable of getting a lot of…

  • the job

    I have never really had a job before. I mean I have had internships and I have contracted for people. But like fitting into an organization where I report to someone, full-time — not really a thing I have ever done. Weird…right? Like even growing up I never had a job. I made my own…

  • learning to fail

    There are many books written about “how to succeed.” There are far fewer books written about “how to fail.” More specifically, I am interested in the question of when is the right time to give up on things. You are faced with this question all of the time — and yet there seems to be…

  • edge

    It has still been hard for me to focus. Like I can work in spurts. And pay real attention in spurts. But something is off about my motivation. My motivation for things feels a bit unearthed by a sense of anxiety. An anxiety that is basically lingering in the background of everything. It’s not generalized…

  • the Limiting Resource Is Energy

    I think energy is basically the limiting resource. I think momentum is what people crave in life. They want things to work. People have different rhythms for sure – but people just want their music to play. So there’s many ways to live. I am not arguing against that. But they want their way of…

  • former and current

    It is fun to model yourself not as one person but as a collection of people. Fun is probably not the right word. But perhaps the fun part is just looking at things with this type of different lens. I know that sounds a bit schizophrenic or insane to think about. Not that being schizo…

  • not the center

    For a long while – perhaps most of my professional career thus far – I have entered conversations as the self-assumed center of attention. Forget professional, this has transcended most places. Like personal and social interactions. In classes, etc. I have entered and just assumed like it was my duty or responsibility to be the…

  • therapy

    I have a lot of thoughts on therapy and seeing a therapist. I saw my first therapist when I was something like 12 years old. I used to complain to my parents a lot about headaches. I got headaches most nights before bed. I think headaches were really code for anxiety. I think in hindsight…

  • just focus

    The internet is full of clickbait advertising ways to increase your productivity. They tend to be rather complicated hoop jumping activities that have never amount to much for me. The same is true for me in terms of getting stronger or trying to lose weight. What sells on the internet and owns a lot of…

  • structure / serious focus

    I am trying to change up some more or less core components of my structured day. Right now, I basically have no structure to my day. This feels lucky in ways. I am grateful for this. But I feel like I could be a lot more productive. And I have been saying that for a…

  • slump

    I have been in a writing slump for a few months now. The words are not flying. Perhaps the opposite. I mean I am still writing. But I am not really expressing myself. It’s like I am going to the gym, I am showing up – which is an accomplishment of sorts – but not…

  • youth sports

    Why did we spend so much time playing youth sports. I do not know about you – but for me, I mean sports were such a big part of my life. Like after school I basically always had practice. My coaches were mean. I remember being afraid of practice. I was not a star athlete.…

  • showing up

    I basically fully believe you can figure anything out. In my heart I believe that. I hedge a bit by saying well like “I don’t want to do that” BUT if I did, I could. Like I fully believe if I spent the rest of my life trying to do basically anything, I could. Weird…

  • in your heart

    One day you realize your teachers were lying to you. That they did not really know what they were talking about. That they did not really get good grades in school. That they, too, worry about finding truth in life. It takes time to come to these realizations. I mean, in school, you may get…

  • the most interesting story

    I think a lot of my motivation for life — many of the things that give me energy — can be boiled down into a simple ask: “what makes for the most interesting story?” And more precisely, what story can I think about in the shower or right before bed that makes me feel the…

  • placeholder

    I feel like a lot of the time tension comes from misunderstanding. I have written about the plight of words. And how they so rarely feel like enough. And when they do — or perhaps a song does — well then we feel immense attraction to them. Because they capture the moment. They make us…

  • words

    Words are hard for me these days. Especially words with other people. I can handle the words in my head. They are all over the place but I definitely feel like I have a grasp on them. The words with other people. The conversations. The conversations that seem to be moving SO SLOWLY. They test…

  • tired writing this

    I am writing this from the library. First time coming here, and I think I am going to start to make a habit out of it. Habit out of going out of my house and doing work. Deep work. Focused work. Real work. This is a theme in a lot of my writing lately. A…

  • morning scramble

    I would not say I am particularly good at sleeping. I would actually say many would say I am quite bad. I wake up early. Like most of the time around 5 AM. Regardless of what time zone I am in. But sometimes…sometimes I get into phases where I wake up at like 2 am.…

  • motion at the gym

    I am relatively new to the gym. I have been working out mainly consistently for the past 4 weeks. And I had a break, but before that I was working out consistently for let’s call it 3 months. So in all, let’s call it maybe 4 months of mainly consistently lifting weights. That’s maybe an…

  • wandering

    I was going to write a title for this piece before starting. I sometimes do that. But not today. Today, I am writing before writing the title. It’s because I do not really know where I am headed. Tends to be a theme of my life right now. Yesterday, I went on a walk. I…

  • how you say

    You probably have heard this prompt before. Something about how jealousy only works when you truly want to trade your whole life with someone else. You cannot just pick and swap particular attributes of your life. Elements are not transactional like that—you have to be willing to sacrifice all other aspects of your life in…

  • just write more

    People sometimes ask me this prompt: “What advice would you give yourself?” I have written fancy versions of this answer. They read more like marketing think pieces. My real answer – if I could really only tell myself one thing – would be the following: write more. I’d say the same to you, too. If…

  • kids who you think are adults

    So this is another one of those essays that probably comes across like complaining. I am writing it anyways. Perhaps one day I’ll unlock or evolve into a new character. But for now you are getting neurotic me. The guy who needs to warn himself against making the same mistakes over and over. The mistake…

  • the d word

    It’s all bullshit. I have no idea if I am allowed to swear. I mean of course I am allowed to. But not sure how and if and whatever it impacts this site’s reputation. Like what Google thinks. But who cares. That’s not the point. Or is it. Is the point perhaps that this is…

  • living alone

    This is my very first time living alone. I have spent time alone. Traveled the world alone. But this is my first time living in my own apartment of sorts. It’s not a big building. And I don’t have to walk by a bunch of people in order to get into my house. I say…

  • active listening

    I am trying really hard these days to become a more active listener. It is one of those things — listening — that perhaps you take for granted. At least I, did. But in this day and age, with Zoom meetings going on and the allure of the INTERNET available just a few clicks away,…

  • waiting for what

    Wish someone told me earlier that no one is going to come save me. I do not know why we think someone would come and save us. Perhaps it is because of school. Like you have teachers who save you. Or at least pretend to. Until you realize that…well…these people are teachers. It takes a…

  • i havent grinded

    My truth is that i have not worked hard. I have talked about kobe. I am not kobe. Pronounced the right way. Being somewhat good at things. Even somewhat. Is a curse. It teaches you that you can skate by and get lucky. You can’t. Not if you want. Well not if you want something…

  • aware

    Detecting bullshit comes naturally to me. Maybe it’s just that I am neurotic. Or maybe I am defensive and projecting my inability to trust most people. Maybe. Maybe that’s what it is driving my ability to see through bullshit in seconds. Like I am always on. Detecting. Confidence seems obvious. Can someone actually speak with…

  • clicking with distance

    Many of the topics I have written about over the past few months have resonated cognitively but have missed out on a sense of application. Like, they have made sense in my head. Mainly. But they have not actually been felt or experienced to a degree that really drove the concepts home. This is common…

  • hungry for structure

    I have been unstructured for the past 6 months. Really longer. Not comfortable. Not settled into a routine. Not disciplined, really. Not getting the feedback loops of focus that I know are both possible and uniquely rewarding. I am hungry for structure. There was probably a version of me not all too long ago –…

  • in between

    Too often I feel stuck in between. Like I am both not high level enough and also not low level enough. The pool of mediocrity is what scares me. Really scares me. In a way that I hope I don’t wake up decades from now and think to myself: if I only thought bigger or…

  • naivete versus caution

    Another one of the tensions I have been thinking about lately revolves around the pros and cons of approaching a situation with naivete versus approaching the same situation with a degree of caution. I think there’s probably a phrase – or there should be a phrase at least – for talking about the benefits of…

  • paths

    There’s a tension between believing that life is extremely predictable and also seeing that life, at least most of it, is actually quite mundane. Both may be true. As it may be the case that most of life is boring and then every so often something pops up that really throws you off your cadence.…

  • re re re thinking

    I am back writing. Well, mainly. This essay is probably going to cover a whole host of topics. They are all at least somewhat related. Though, that may not be immediately obvious as to precisely how. This essay is long overdue. Long being probably something like 2 weeks. Because, well, for the past 2 weeks…

  • wisdom

    What follows is very much a sloppy essay. I focused on getting some ideas out. I am about to catch a flight. And I thought what better than to empty my brain. A race of sorts. To let the ideas flow out. Not sure how or what quality they will be. Going for it nonetheless.…

  • Old dogs, new tricks

    Spending time with some older people lately, I have been thinking about the old adage: “you can’t teach an old dog new tricks.” I have never had an old dog. Well at least not that I can remember. I had a dog growing up that passed away when I was like 7 years old. And…

  • scatter brained or focused

    I am involving myself in a lot of things. I used to be this way. And then I quit. Basically everything. And started doing just one thing. And that one thing surely had diversity in it in terms of the activities. But it was all focused in one direction. For years I was just doing…

  • Be offended

    I want to do work that I am proud enough to sign my name next to – that I am going to be offended and genuinely upset if it does not work out. Is that a weird benchmark? I feel like we spend so much of our lives hedging. Especially nowadays. We spend so much…

  • distributed lab

    Here is a ChatGPT written version of an outline I wrote for what I think could be a really powerful concept—the creation of a distributed lab. Title: Improving Science with Teamwork Introduction: This essay discusses a common issue in science – the way leaders (Principal Investigators or PIs) run things might be holding back progress.…

  • make everything a movie

    Whenever I am trying to solve a problem of sorts, I tend to draw out the problem on some sort of linear timeline. A funnel call it or some sort of diagram appears in my head that tries to turn the problem into an equation of sorts. With this image in my head, I then…

  • conditioning

    I have a lot of thoughts on this topic. I do not think I always have had a lot of thoughts on this topic but recently it has come to the forefront of my head. I am not sure how I feel about writing about this topic — which is a good sign that I…

  • labels

    I have been called lots of things in my life. You probably have, too. Where does your head go when you read that statement? I imagine some people start thinking about the positive things they have been called. Positive accolades of sorts. I find myself drifting towards the negative. Or not even necessarily negative —…

  • sit down and do real work

    There’s so much fake work out there. I have written about this before. But I caught the plague. Years ago. Lost the ability to sit down and focus and get the important things done. And actually think. I didn’t fully lose the ability – like I could still do it – but so often my…

  • consumed by the story

    When I read a book, especially fiction, I tend to get consumed by the plot and arc of the story. I start to obsessively read the book. I feel like I am living in that world. And then everything around me starts to morph into the character arc and story that I have been reading.…

  • You are still alone

    Sometimes my mind tricks me into thinking that one day I will not be alone. This is a reminder to myself that my mind is lying. Or at least trying to cope with something. To not accept the reality that life is a single player game. Like it has multiplayer mode enabled. You can engage…

  • flights are underpriced

    I sometimes find myself complaining about the cost of flights. I am sure you have found yourself in this position as well. Like perhaps you are preparing last minute for a trip and you see all the flights and they cost you hundreds or thousands of dollars. And you roll your eyes. Ugh, why is…

  • wandering

    There’s the saying not all those who wander are lost. I just re-read it while reading lord of the rings. I am reading lord of the rings right now while doing a bit of wandering on my own. In a land I do not know. In a language I roughly know. Wandering. I have done…

  • single purpose tools

    I feel like there’s space for someone to go about making a bunch of single purpose tools. A computer like device exclusively for writing essays. A phone like device exclusively for running. An Apple Watch like device exclusively for swimming. A computer like device exclusively for coding at work. In many ways, I know this…

  • Dimensions of advice

    I have always had a really weird relationship with advice. Advice defined as telling other people what/how/why to do something. I say I have always had – like I was born having a relationship with advice – but what I really mean is that for as long as I can remember, I have what I…

  • Old dogs new tricks

    When you get older, do you become more or less open? It feels to me that most humans become less open. Their identities become more solidified. On one hand, you could characterize this as very much a good thing. The foundation has become stronger. Less likely to break apart. You know who you are, and…

  • Empty

    This essay is another of my relatively long rambles about life. A bit abstract. A bit full of fluff. A bit incoherent. The usual mix. Sometimes I think to myself — wouldn’t it be better to not write this stuff? Like, perhaps I could write about some other topic? Some more productive topic? But then…

  • A clean pipe

    I think a lot about thinking. Or at least more than I used to, and seemingly more than most people around me. You can attribute this to a sense of paranoia – not in the clinical sense but at least anecdotally my level of neuroticism for details (but the ones that matter, and the ones…

  • running away from

    I have been traveling quite a bit lately. I mean not as much as I used to. But also a lot more than I was recently. The juxtaposition is fascinating. Fascinating because my days feel like they have a decent amount of volatility in them. Less so externally. I mean some externally — booking random…

  • refreshing

    I did not publish an essay for the last two weeks and somehow it feels like it has been two years. I originally started publishing daily like 7 years ago, and I did it straight for 4 years basically without missing a single day. Then I took off 3 years and compounded a bunch of…

  • mind versus body

    The mind versus body thing is a thing I have been thinking about more and more lately. Some people describe it as a war of sorts — your mind versus your body. Others more of a symbiotic relationship. Regardless, I think it’s fairly clear that it is a relationship. It is a thing that needs…

  • the kid’s table

    Do you miss the kid’s table? I do. I hope you know what I am talking about. I am talking about that table that was let off the to the side where only the kids could go sit. Separate from the adult table. The adult table — who knows what was going on over there.…

  • law of reversed effort

    This is a half thought. Perfectly fitting for the topic. I am torn in my head around the benefits or downsides to intentionality. And it all stems from something I read somewhat recently (so I am aware of the potential lingering, well obvious lingering, here). The Law of Reversed Effort, also known as the “Law…

  • Defining faster

    Speed is one of the most inappropriately used and understood words in all of “tech culture.” People say they want to move fast. They say they want to move fast and break things. I do not know if you ever talk to a CEO who is like yeah I want us to go extremely slowly…

  • purity of writing

    There is something uniquely pure about writing. I am talking about the act of writing. Something uniquely old and almost primal about it. It feels native. Though, as you must know, we were not born knowing how to write — let alone type on our fancy magic machines as we are all mainly familiar with…

  • Already seen

    Have you ever experienced deja vu? Or have an idea of what it means? The term “deja vu” itself is French and translates to “already seen.” It refers to the experience of experiencing something again. A sensation that I would imagine you are familiar with—you find yourself in a place doing a thing, and get…

  • Can you engineer everything?

    This thought touches a lot of similar thoughts I have had around the attractiveness of the logic brain. The logic brain or perhaps there is a better word for it is that part of me, and likely part of you, that so desperately wants THINGS TO MAKE SENSE. Like we want to be able to…

  • Nuance

    I recently published an essay about sensitivity. The gist of the essay was thinking through the notion that sensitivity roughly equates (or perhaps perfectly equates) to intelligence. Definitions aside — the main idea is that being sensitive to a thing or situation or what not is not as inherently bad as societal conditioning may be…

  • Sensitivity

    Perhaps there is a correlation between sensitivity and intelligence. Perhaps being more sensitive would mean you are actually being smarter. This would come as a bit of a surprise. Or at least a shock — to the many people around the country who shame sensitivity. Perhaps growing up you were told to be less sensitive.…

  • Learning to play

    Learning to GPT is a high leverage thing you can do right now. Like learning how to know how to use AI for a purpose of sorts or for some sort of benefit. 99% of the world does not know how to do that yet. But imagine the productivity or fun gains you can get…

  • stuck

    So many people I know seem stuck. At least to me, as an outsider, observing some of the people around me. And I look at them. I see their eyes glazed over. And I see them as products of the products they are around. Basically nothing is left beyond that. They wake up and check…

  • i am speed

    Do you remember that one scene in the movie cars where lightning mcqueen — the main character — is sitting in the garage getting ready to race. Okay I recognize this is a “kids movie” (whatever that is supposed to mean!) but just watch it. Well, do you ever feel that way? Like you are…

  • because we did it this way this other time

    This will sound rant-ish — and it probably is — but try to focus on the ideas more than the tone. I hope to never work in an environment again where people come to me with defensive answers like: “well, we are doing it this way because this is how SOME BIG COMPANY I USED…

  • please interrupt

    I should really call this blog — the extremely niche guide to extremely niche social interactions. Well, I should not actually, because that is not the point of the blog (there is no point! other than to write 1 million words over some period of time). But if you were to analyze the content —…

  • When you were 4

    You were probably a great person when you were 4 years old. I mean I am not the arbiter of greatness. And I don’t really know you. And perhaps that is the point. Perhaps the point is that I believe most everyone — everyone! — was great when they were 4 years old. They were…

  • It’s probably simpler

    I have probably written about this before — at least in some capacity — but that’s because the concept is a self-fulfilling loop. At least in my life. I tend to consistently overestimate how complicated things are. Pretty much always. Neurosis wins out. I default to logic brain. I get stuck in the cognitive windmill.…

  • All i want is to be able to sign my name on my work

    The title says the message. Like this is literally all I want to be able to do in my life. Is to be able to do work that I feel extremely proud to sign my name on. I imagine my definition of proud has broadly changed over time. And I can probably trace the history…

  • Ramping

    Prepare for the word ramble. Goal with this piece — like many of the pieces I write — is strictly volume (not coherence, not objective quality, just need to get ideas out). I am sitting here in Cambridge (Boston) on my iPad while my computer charges. I am having a bit of antsy day —…

  • aloof

    They say that the person most likely to win the fight is the person who has the least to lose. I have never been in a physical altercation that was anything beyond sparring or joking – so I cannot tell you the effectiveness of this “mad dog” approach from experience being actually in the arena…

  • Can you work with people you disagree with?

    The question is rather straightforward, though I imagine it can be interpreted in many ways. In writing the prompt, a few things came to mind (and were likely up or downstream from the question in some capacity — meaning they are connected but also likely operating at a different level). One thing that came to…

  • Real cool

    If you ask the average college student what their “goals” look like, you may hear an answer that looks roughly like: “to get a great job that sets me up for success.” If you ask the above average college student at the above average school a similar question, my intuition is that you will hear…

  • What is your default?

    We all have default settings. We are aware of the default settings when we go in and unbox our computers. But we are less aware of the default preferences when we start working with someone (unless of course they write one of those personal user guides — but even those are not particularly comprehensive most…

  • Small reminders

    I am interested in finding ways to avoid spiraling. When I say spiraling, I really mean “avoid situations where my mind goes into a dark pattern of sorts that sucks the alive-ness out of me.” In those situations, I find myself less productive, less happy, and more prone to sadness. I am not saying that…

  • “impact”

    A lot of people I meet say they are motivated to create a legacy or create an impact on the world. I am not sure I believe it. If you ask them a few questions, I am not sure they believe it either. Here is how the conversation may go. I ask them what they…

  • like a kid

    I am trying to capture a feeling. It is a feeling where I am stuck in a Whorfian situation of sorts — I cannot think of the particular words that will help me do justice to the feeling. So I turn to writing, in an effort to better put words to the feeling. Why? Because…

  • Two Mountains

    I heard this metaphor from a friend the other day and it really has stuck with me. It is a bit abstract so please try and lean in if you are taking the time to read this and explore this rabbit hole with me. The metaphor, and I am sure I am butchering many of…

  • SYSTEMS SYSTEMS

    I have previously written about the concept of “unconditional response-ability.” This is to say that in any circumstance, you are capable of taking responsibility for your actions. This sort of assertion rests on the underlying belief that the world is not stimulus — meaning you have the power (if you want to and/or care to)…

  • rhizomes (Deleuze)

    Lately I have been diving down the Deleuze rabbit hole (trying say that five times fast) and recently came across some of his more famous thinking on the topic of thinking — the notion that rhizomatic systems are a more accurate representation of many things (like how we think, how physics works, etc.). Traditional thinking…

  • is friction a good or a bad thing?

    In startup land — things tend to be all about “reducing friction.” We used to write on pen and paper. Then typewriters. And now I am typing on some fancy touchscreen iPad. At every milestone, you could say we reduced friction. We made it easier to write. But now the question I am asking myself…

  • letting loose

    I find myself having a hard time appreciating the little things. I am perhaps not really alone in this pursuit. Saying it is hard to appreciate the little things is a bit an overly used type of commentary — but that does not make it true. I think you can find an amount of wisdom…

  • searching

    For the first time in a very long time — I am free. Free in the capacity that I have very little ongoing responsibility on my plate. Well, I still have the underlying responsibility to myself. To be me. But I have not signed up for any obligations to other people. That — the obligations…

  • other people want you to have a purpose

    I am existing in a period of my life right now that does not have a lot of stated direction. I mean, perhaps that is not entirely true — perhaps the stated direction is not commit to any long-term stated direction, at least for now. Put another way, I have no intentions currently of doing…

  • letting go

    This is the type of essay (still not sure if the right word for this style of writing is ESSAY but hopefully you get the point after you read this ~thing) where I set a timer and just go. The objective is volume. Pure volume. People sometimes roll my eyes when I say the objective…

  • in the right system

    If we believe that people are just products of the systems that they occupy, then rather than judge the individual (although society should at least in some ways hold people accountable, which we can get to a minute), why not just look at the system? This is a question more or less posed to myself…

  • care, clarity, competence

    As you have seen with several of these explorations — I am interested in a topic not so precisely labeled as “human coordination.” This subject effectively covers the human experience in engaging with the world (and other subjects in the world) around them. Much of this interest comes from personal frustration in dealing with the…

  • climbing ladders to nowhere

    This essay may read as a criticism of other people. It is at least roughly a criticism of other people — but it is certainly not a pedestal-framing effort. In other words, much of the essay below is written at first and foremost MYSELF. So I want to make clear (to myself) that as I…

  • Sandy at the beach

    I have written about “surrendering” before — this touches on an adjacent topic. It is less about interpersonal situations and more about navigating life more broadly. I could perhaps summarize the agenda/topic I had in mind by using the term “rolling with the punches.” Lately, I have had to do quite a bit of rolling…

  • Assuming positive intent

    I think when I first meet someone or read some thing that I even ~roughly disagree with is to assume the other person is deficient in some way. Perhaps I judge their intelligence or more often judge their care. Like I see a version of sloppiness, more specifically unintentional sloppiness (defined as the characteristic of…

  • whole point of life

    What is the point of life? What do you think about when you read this question? Like what immediately comes to mind? What is the image in your head? Surely there is one. For me, it is more than a picture. It is a movie. That often happens with particular phrases. I would not go…

  • those new CITIES, and legitimacy

    How is it that we (as a society) have MORE *things* (technology, services, access) than ever before, yet it is not any easier to live a fulfilling/happy/meaningful life (in fact, some would argue harder!)? For the purposes of this essay, we call this latter bucket—of fulfillment/happiness/meaning—LIVING-NESS. We believe society’s living-ness score has stagnated (and is…

  • older things are better things – wearing something in

    I always cringe when I pick up a brand new book. Cringe because I know that I prefer to read from an older book. Something feels off about it. Like the laminate of the fancy new book touching my skin just feels weird? I mean I have read from many brand new books, just as…

  • bye SaaS

    My intention for this essay is high volume. I care about getting shots up more than I do about legibility (at least right now, in this moment, as I write this essay). So do not judge success here as coherence. Success is merely volume. Literal word count. Idea count. Ideally I get to some original…

  • today’s default tools

    I have written many flavors of this message many times. You can tell from reading this blog—even just scanning it—that the below analysis is of a topic that I am interested in better understanding. I care to understand not purely for understanding sake (though that would start to put my neurotic mind at some level…

  • What is FAST? Actually

    When I say the word FAST, what do you think about? For me, several applications come to mind. I think of Usain Bolt, running the 100m dash. I think of at work, when people say you need to get things done quickly. I think of some weird chip on my shoulder phenomenon that just seems…

  • Vacuums and factories

    We humans may be simpler than we would like to think. People do not love self-identifying as simple. We like to think we are complicated. Our brain basks in the glory of complexifying things and that also applies to our own identities. But I believe that it turns out a lot of our operations come…

  • Breakfast is NOT the most important meal of the day, and your personal border wall

    Filter less and produce more. That is what I am repeating to myself as I embark on this “journey.” By journey, I simply mean another essay. I have written ~many of these over the past few months (and literally thousands over the past few years). Some times it feels a bit like writing into a…

  • Getting shots up

    The difference between Kobe Bryant level performance and your d-league wanna be level performance is that Kobe got 100000 times more shots up than you. That is it. Okay, there is more nuance and he was born taller and more athletic than you. But the difference between Kobe and the person who is the starting…

  • What is the point of the American Public school System ?

    There are many ways to assess performance. One approach is to see if a *thing* is living up to the objective of said thing. Another method is to criticize the objective of said thing. In the context of the American public school system (dated around 2023, though it has been a few years since I…

  • invert

    When you are stuck on something, just invert the problem. This is a fairly simple framework—unclear if you can even really call it a framework—but has served me well in the past. Consider inversion a tool you can use to continue momentum in a particular direction by unblocking the current obstacle. And the approach is…

  • Notes on Yom Kippur

    I by no means consider myself to be an expert “apologizer” but it is a topic I have some amount of experience with—as most likely do you—given I have been on both the giving and receiving end of plenty of apologies in plenty of different contexts. For a few reasons, I thought it would be…

  • Humans may not be complicated

    A rather ridiculous percentage of this blog has been consumed by a topic that is (and has been) consuming me (for many many years). Perhaps it is not ridiculous but it is substantial (in volume and depth). The topic I am referring to is broadly the notion of “interpersonal dynamics.” Interpersonal is just a fancy…

  • on Negotiation

    Have you ever been in a position where you needed to negotiate? This could be a proper negotiation event or could be a casual discussion where you are arguing with a friend. Every interaction with another human could be called a negotiation of sorts, as you are making tradeoffs according to your communication. How to…

  • time portfolio

    Right now, my brain feels a bit jumbled. I have been without a dedicated bed for the past few weeks (cannot believe it has been a few weeks) and I have been going through a above average period of stress with my primary work (at the same time, this “primary work” is changing as I…

  • collaborating like a DJ

    I have always been extremely interested in organizational design. Trying to answer the question of what is the most optimal way to organize people such that we maximize things like coordination effectiveness is a puzzling problem. Puzzling both because it is hard but also because I sometimes ask myself: “how have we not solved this…

  • emotional WALLS

    My observation is that most of us have a lot of emotional ~stuff that we have not quite figured out. Stuff that is messy and complicated but likely worth figuring out because it is in some way hindering our ability to find meaning in life. This—need to figure shit out—is very true of the younger…

  • the LOSER at the FANCY PARTY

    This is a lesson told through a series of life experiences. Have you ever been the LOSER at the fancy party? Do you immediately understand what I am talking about? Do you have a clear image in your head? Do you hear the music? If not, then perhaps you have never had this life experience…

  • smaller

    As a species, we have yet to master coordination. Teams of any significant size devolve into inefficiency, stagnation, and eventual death. This is…weird? Right? Like we have literal supercomputers in our pocket. We have AI magic coming or perhaps already here. And yet…and yet we have not figured out how to coordinate materially better than…

  • LIVING-ness

    The question of what trait in people you admire most is a very revealing question. It may be hard to answer in the abstract so start (as you go through this in your own head, as I am doing now) by thinking of real people you admire (or at least think you admire). I have…

  • that LATE TWENTIES vibe

    This essay covers a recent ~thing~ I have been seeing across my friends who now occupy their LATE TWENTIES. This essay is not about me. Well, not in any particular way. I guess you could say that every essay I write is in some way ~about me as it is a projection of the brain…

  • how to WIN

    I am surprised that no one told me this earlier. There is an extremely easy way to win at basically anything in life. It is not a magic formula. It is not voodoo stuff. But I promise it works. You will be shocked. It is an extremely boring formula, but I think I can _basically_…

  • LOVING listening

    How _good_ are you at listening? Kind of a hard question to answer because well, who decides what makes a good listener? Maybe I will try another slice of a similar question…has anyone ever told you that you are a good listener? Forget good. Has anyone ever called you a GREAT listener? Still not sure?…

  • How to make tedious work FUN!!

    Several times in my (~relatively short) professional career, people have warned me about “burning out.” They would tell me to avoid working too hard because it could lead to me “blowing up and not wanting to work any more.” These were normally people older than me telling me this. They told me that life was…

  • the VIBES

    Modern language—at least the American ENGLISH that I am used to—lacks the richness required to appropriately evoke VIBES. I do and will try nonetheless but this realization is frustrating to a degree I only recently appreciated. How can you describe Kobe in 08 using ENGLISH ADJECTIVES? How can you describe the FEELING YOU GET when…

  • What do you write about?

    I find the question of how do I figure out what to write about is asked by someone who does not write (or at least does not write this style of blog). It is similar to if someone were to ask you how do you find books to read? If you read books, you would…

  • stop the fake work

    Rambled thoughts below. Do not read into them. That much. This is the first pass at shaping this type of clay. — We have entered a zone of ~late (tbd how late we really are in the textbook, but we have certainly entered a weird chapter) where PEOPLE do fake work. This whole essay will…

  • Where CAN you get REAL feedback?

    Below is an idea I have long wanted to exist. I am surprised that, in today’s modern society, there still seems to be no good options for the problem (and related problems) I soon describe. I think solving said problems would be a net good thing for the world and lead to people with more…

  • Go faster via clarity

    Whenever I feel sluggish, I read this list to remind me that it is possible to achieve magnificent feats in relatively short periods of time. I then read this list to remind me that all of this is possible with relatively limited amounts of resources.  Greatness doesn’t happen by accident—it requires intentionality and a belief in the conditional probability (the knowledge…

  • Catching the spiral before you spiral

    This is an essay to my former and future self. This is an essay that I wish I had read 100 times before and an essay I will probably read 100 times in the future. This is an essay that—if I can get the damn, hard thoughts out PROPERLY, I can save myself SO MUCH…

  • Emotional sunglasses

    This is another rabbit hole into emotions and navigating a planet with HUMANS (at least the version of humans that currently exist, that I am familiar with/exposed to in 2023). Humans are emotional creatures. Have you heard this before? Has anyone every told you this? People used to tell me this and I would always…

  • Dear haters of MICRO management: here is the case for ACTIVE management

    This essay is ~risky to publish in the capacity that it goes against some cultural norms of today. I want to emphasize that I hugely value kind leaders—people who show excessive kindness. I think being an asshole is a hugely selfish decision often made by people who blame the world for their emotional reactions. In…

  • Knowing how IT feels

    I often get the words empathy and sympathy confused. Here are versions of the definition that make sense to me: “Empathy is shown in how much compassion and understanding we can give to another. Sympathy is more of a feeling of pity for another.” It is materially easier to develop empathy for someone—or some thing—if you,…

  • Chefs and athletes—where do you need them?

    I sometimes use a version of the following analogy to describe two types of people I commonly meet. Imagine a spectrum of software engineers (yes, I, and many others likely, are on many different types of spectrums, but focus for a moment please as I talk about a particular type of spectrum). The following are…

  • Ideas can consume you

    Do you ever get into _that mode_ where your brain—at least the part you are aware of—is FULLY consumed by a single idea? How often are you in that mode? What does it feel like to you? How would you describe it to a friend? Call it whatever you want, perhaps a neighbor or parallel…

  • Getting “triggered”

    You hear the phrase “triggered” more often than ever before. What does it mean to you? When I hear the term, I tend to roll my eyes at least a little bit. Sometimes you hear the term as people use it as a defense for their emotions. They say something like: “you saying this thing…

  • paretOH THIS IS an IMPORTANT principle

    Somehow…someway…I still underestimate the POWER of the Pareto Principle (and relatedly the “Power Law” dynamic). You have probably heard of the Pareto Principle. The Pareto Principle states that 80% of consequences come from 20% of the causes, asserting an unequal relationship between inputs and outputs. I was taught the Pareto Principle probably 10+ years ago. It was…

  • Lost in the cognitive exercise

    How do you know if someone cares about you? Oof, another big meaty prompt. There are thousands of ways I could slice this question. My head, as it often does, goes immediately cognitive. How do I assess whether or not someone cares about me: Is caring about showing support for other people? Is it about…

  • What would it take to surrender?

    I would say I have a ~thing with “control.” I say thing, and put the ~ next to it, to denote that I am not quite sure what my stance on control is. There are many ways to define control. I am thinking about it in this context as the act of trying to “manage”…

  • Can you CHANGE people?

    Oof, this is a Topic (capital T, to signify how important it is to me). Even thinking about this topic, even starting to peel back the curtain around it, gives me a bit of the chills. Chills..Why? Well, I am both excited to unravel this prompt more formally, but also NERVOUS to do so…Nervous, not…

  • Fast is not always straight

    One day, I will turn this essay into a concise and digestible artifact—something that flows. That day is not today because, well, I need to get the thoughts out first (so that one day I can re-arrange them into something _easy_ to understand. But this essay is me EXTERNALLY PROCESSING). Most people reading this do…

  • Get the thoughts OUT, now

    What is your relationship with writing? You probably read ~things (I would say most modern Americans do, though it is important, at least for me, to call out that literally 20% of Americans (in 2022) identify as illiterate—meaning they do not know how to read. The average reading level in the US is that of…

  • “THE” Community

    Though I have been to New York City countless times, before this past weekend, I had never spent much time in New Jersey. Now, this essay is not an argument for New Jersey (it is honestly a rather ~boring/ugly/[insert negative adjective and imagine I am saying it in some sort of New Yorker accent]~ place…

  • What if everything went right?

    Yesterday, I wrote about the merits (and freedom around) choosing positivity in your day-to-day life. The TL;DR of the ramble is that in any given circumstance, no matter how bad or ugly a situation may be, _you_ have the choice of how to respond (as either THE HERO, responsible for your outcomes, or THE VICTIM,…

  • What would happen if you CHOSE positivity?

    “Man has almost infinite ability to take things for granted” Aldos Huxley How grateful are you? If you had to place your gratefulness level on a scale of 1-10—where do you rate yourself? It is an intentionally ~silly question: how the f*ck do you “score” your gratefulness? What is the difference between a 4 and…

  • Recurring themes and SECURITY

    When you have nothing in the way, where does your mind wander? On a clear night, what stars do you see? When you have nothing to think about, what do you think about? When your head hits the pillow, what thoughts come to mind? When you hit mile seven in the run, what types of…

  • Control and Letting go

    A decent percentage of my writing—honestly an extremely large chunk if I look at the early start of this blog—has been more a form therapy than anything else. I am going ~through (what I seem to feel is) a pretty intense period of life right now. I say what “I seem to feel is” because…

  • Where does your hatred come from?

    What do you hate? How often? I find hate to be a rather strong word. I try not to use it lightly and certainly do not *feel* it lightly. I tend to reserve my personal hatred—the list of stuff, people, and thoughts that I absolutely despise with every bone in my body—to *really* bad things…

  • Pick up the pen

    In July, I read and wrote obsessively. I read something like 23 books and I wrote something like 45,000 words (a lot of them on this blog). But, about 10 days ago, I took a break. It was not a particularly intentional stoppage. I just stopped. I am not sure why. I think part of…

  • In and out, and dependence

    They flow like water into your life. Sometimes it feels like a pipe exploding. Otherwise, small, controlled drips. They is people. The others. The external. THEY are the people who wander into your life. They sometimes knock on the door, but often times you do not see it coming. When you greet them, you are…

  • People are people, too

    This is not a particularly novel thought, but I find reminding myself of it every so often is helpful for re-centering and re-establishing the context of life. People are just people. Famous people. Poor people. Undiscovered people. Smart people. Useless people. People you love. People you hate. People you hate to love. And people you…

  • Talk in person

    I think a ~decent amount about advice I would give my former self. I am not sure why I do this. The past is the past and, well, it is impossible to change the past. This sort of self-talk, perhaps, is less advice for my past and moreso reinforcement for my future. In some ways,…

  • intensity intensity INTENSITY

    Do you ever walk away from a conversation with someone—perhaps someone you are meeting for the first time or even someone you know very well—and you say (at least to yourself): “wow, that person is intense.” My question to you is what do you mean by that? What makes that person intense? And how do…

  • The Read, Write, Run Protocol

    As is true with every essay I write, the words below should not be considered prescriptive advice. I am not a doctor, nor an expert—and you should think for yourself (and/or talk to a professional). I believe I have discovered the HOLY TRINITY of physical and mental health—a group of activities that, when performed in…

  • Driving enterprise value

    This essay is a broad articulation of how I think about business building, particularly in the context of building businesses that have the objective of maximizing enterprise value. I do not profess to be an expert business builder, nor do I think I am particularly great at giving advice, so this essay is not exactly…

  • The golden rule is a trap, and what does it mean to be authentic?

    Were you ever taught The Golden Rule (yes, the fancy capitalized one)? What comes to mind when you read the words? THE Golden Rule (I emphasize the THE in my head, not sure why). The first definition for the The Golden Rule on Google states that it is: the biblical rule of “do unto others as you would have…

  • Book Learning: The Rise of Christianity: How the Obscure, Marginal Jesus Movement Became the Dominant Religious Force in the Western World in a Few Centuries

    This essay is part of a larger collection: Book Learning. These are not complete reviews but rather summaries of my favorite learnings or ideas. I read to exercise my brain. If you have any book suggestions, ideas, or feedback, please feel free to contact me directly. I recently read The Rise of Christianity by Rodney…

  • A better way to learn and running marathons

    The internet was/is one of the most powerful inventions in the history of humanity. It has democratized access to information—the great leveler—such that anyone (or hopefully nearly anyone living in free countries) can find what they need. The secrets of the world, which used to be trapped in libraries, now made available accessible to the…

  • On saving the judgement for later

    Should you judge others? Surely you have heard the expression: “you know what happens when you assume. You make an ass out of you and me.” This advice was normally followed by some authority figure making a wise comment such as: “never assume.” I have always struggled with this type of guidance. Like I get…

  • Thinking about identity

    I feel tension when I think about the concept of identity. I leverage a bit of dialectical behavior therapy (DBT) talk when I concede to the idea that multiple things can be true at the same time. As a related aside, how does that statement make you feel? How comfortable are you with the idea…

  • Rambling on validation

    This is one of my LESS CLEAR LESS GOOD ESSAYS. — Do you judge other people when they post on social media? I do. Does that say more about me or them? Why are they posting if they do not want to be judged? You probably—and this is an assumption—interpreted my statement of judgement as…

  • Emotional surfing

    I heard someone use the term “emotional surfing” the other day and it struck a unique chord with me. We were talking about the experience of “reliving” previous life experiences and leaning into the emotions and feelings that come with particular memories. That adventure—dubbed my friend as “emotional surfing”—makes me feel “some type of way.”…

  • Less meetings, please

    This essay is embarrassing. In 2021, I averaged 14 meetings per weekday. This is not a benchmark to be proud of—looking at it now, I am disappointed and frustrated. What IN THE WORLD was I doing? If I could go back a few years and grab (and probably shake) myself, I would scream: “STOP. THIS…

  • Abstractions

    Abstraction (from the Latin abs, meaning away from and trahere, meaning to draw) is the process of taking away or removing characteristics from something in order to reduce it to a set of essential characteristics. Being able to “abstract” concepts effectively (and transform/apply them to the situation at hand) can be very useful (and valuable in…

  • Patience

    From the dictionary: patience is the capacity to accept or tolerate delay, trouble, or suffering without getting angry or upset. Over the years, countless people have advised me that I need to be “more patient.” I would often roll my eyes at others’ (often unsolicited) guidance. The story in my head would often cynically go something like…

  • Mr. Does What He Says He Is Going To Do Man

    What do you think of my idea for a superhero? “Mr. Does What He Says He Is Going To Do Man” (In truth, I borrowed this idea from a friend) Mr. Doer (as we call him for short) has a pretty simple set of superpowers: HE DOES WHAT HE SAYS HE IS GOING TO DO.…

  • A healthy mind

    When it comes to physical fitness, there are a number of tests you can do to see if you are “healthy.” Surely the fidelity/helpfulness of said tests can/has/will be improved over time but in general you can look at things like your blood and oxygen levels to get an idea of if you are a…

  • A personal user guide

    Below is an artifact I created several years ago—I sent it as a note to my company that outlined some handy tips and tricks for working with me. The whole message comes across a bit ego-centric because, well, after all, it is describing how I work. In hindsight, the user guide was say ~ 10%…

  • Mind Reading

    (I rate this essay a 2/10 on this topic—more to write about here but also wanted to get something out) The hard part about collaboration, at least for me, is that it often involves needing to figure out what is going on in your partner(s) head(s) so that you can divvy up work across multiple…

  • Is there a Loneliness Epidemic?

    A lot of my mental gymnastics over the past few months has been self-centered around accepting reality and improving my personal health (note that accepting reality I am viewing as a tool to improving my personal health). A quote that has really stuck with me—one that I originally stumbled upon years ago but revisited just…

  • Latency

    In the context of computers (and networking), latency is the amount of time it takes for a data packet to go from one place to another. Latency is the more technical term for lag, which is when you are experiencing response delays while gaming. High latency is what causes time lag and makes gaming far less…

  • Why Run

    I would never identify as a “runner,” though by now I would admit I have participated in serious enough running to qualify. Growing up, I was never particularly good at running: I rarely ran on my own, I was not on the cross country team, and my soccer teammates (and coaches) at one point nicknamed…

  • Response-ability

    An idea (for life and business) that has stuck with me as of late comes from Fred Kofman’s Conscious Business. “You choose to act as you do because you think it is the best way to pursue your interests in a given situation. External facts are information, not stimuli.” I read the quote as a…

  • What would a gym for your brain have in it?

    If we believe our brain to be a muscle of sorts, why is it that we do not “work it out” as intentionally as other body parts? How much time do you spend per year sitting down with the explicit objective of “increasing your mental strength”? And if you were to, how would you go…

  • Presence

    What percentage of your day is spent in a state of presence? This is a question I have been thinking a lot about lately as I reconsider how and where I invest my time. It is a question I think I have ~neglected over the past few years as I have been consumed by notifications…

  • Treadmill for the mind

    This quote from Steve Jobs has always struck me as extremely inspiring and angelic: “When we invented the personal computer, we created a new kind of bicycle…a new man-machine partnership…a new generation of entrepreneurs.” Steve Jobs, c. 1980 A bicycle for the mind is a truly beautiful concept. The current state of technology is more…

  • 1 Million Words

    I am going to write 1 million words. 1 million words is a rather ~weird thing to picture in your head. It is always very hard to conceive very large numbers. Big amounts of time or space are subjective concepts. We don’t use rationality to get around their quantities, instead, we use feeling. We can feel…

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